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The Future is Looking Brighter

My life has been really blah for a long time. Occasionally, I'd have a bad spell to mix things up a bit but there haven't been too many really good moments in the last 2 years. The universe has finally given me some much needed sunshine in my mostly dreary world. 

This morning I gushed to 2 friends about this incredible man that I met recently. He is everything I need and more. And yet he seems oblivious to what a catch he is. Every day he amazes me with his ability to be open, honest and vulnerable with me. His musical choices might be questionable but his taste in women is impeccable. 

One friend cautioned me to take things slow and not rush it. I appreciate her trying to protect my fragile heart. I appreciate that she wants me to make sure to build a strong foundation with him before we reach for the sky. 

The other friend said, “I think you have landed yourself quite a gem. 🥰 And I am fucking rooting for you both like you wouldn’t believe.” And I so appreciate him for recognizing that this man is different from all the rest. He recognizes that i need someone that is just as unique as me if I'm going to feel understood, connected and loved. 

The process of getting to know this beautiful man has already taught me some things about myself. He has opened my eyes to all the things that I need in a person that I thought were impossible to find. He has begun to renew my hope, quiet my mind, soothe my soul and to mend my heart. I really do want things to work out with him, but even if it doesn't, I am greatful that he came into my life. 

I am all in on this. Today, I realized that the only way for me to get out from under this cloud I have been living under is to move forward in my life, hand-in-hand, with the right person. I'm not going to let my inner voice convince me that this isn’t going to be worth it. No matter the long term outcome. 

And I'll just keep my fingers crossed that all our broken edges keep fitting together perfectly.

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