New Lease, Same Life

I recently started taking a class online. Its a free class offered by Yale. I watched the introduction to the course and the first lecture. I have taken a few online quizzes that they recommend. The results were not shocking. One quiz told me that I am unhappy. Another agreed with that assessment. The third quiz advised me that one of my greatest strengths is that I love to learn new things. Both of those things are true. Now, what do I do with that information. This class is supposed to be about the Science of Happiness. I understand science enough to know that the first 2 quizzes were a way to set a baseline. We will take these again at the end and see if we are happier after taking the course. My innate curiosity has me wondering just how this Yale professor thinks she is going to teach me how to be happier in 10 weeks. More importantly, I am curious as to whether it will actually help me in the long run. Most people that know me, think I am a happy person. They think tha...

I have always been a bit of a crier. I have a tendency to cry when frustrated or angry or overwhelmed. Occasionally, I have cried for happy reasons but, more often than not, its for sad reasons. In the last few years, I have done a lot of crying. I cried as I mourned the loss of my marriage. I cried in frustration when the world kept pulling me down. I cried in anger as my life spiraled out of control. I cried as I begged the universe to please just give me a reprieve from the constant rejection from other human beings. Just before Christmas, I was given a gift in a most unexpected way. I was given a new friend. And to throw me for a real loop, its a man. The people that really know me, know that the idea of me being JUST friends with a man is not an easy thing. And to be honest, it wasn't an easy thing for me in the beginning. But lucky for me, he put up with my crap while I dealt with my issues and we're still friends. Up until I met this man, I had been going on at lea...

Yesterday, I ended the day by making a decision to do what I know is the right thing but feels like I ripped my own heart out. 😭 Today, I made a decision that I am very uncertain of but it has me feeling like maybe there is a little hope for my financial future. 😊 Tomorrow, I'll have to make more decisions.  Good. Bad. Right. Wrong. I'll make each decision as it comes my way. Every choice we've ever made has brought us to where we are right now. We are all just doing the best we can to make more right decisions than wrong ones. I love to write. Writing helps me to process things that are bouncing around in my mind. My writing is for me. I am choosing to share it with the world because I hope that some day it will help someone else. I don't just write about the good stuff. I write about ALL the stuff. I used to blog quite often. A few years ago, I stopped because people close to me didn't understand what they were reading. It complicated my life in ways I...